Writing and journaling have helped me see and understand my thoughts better. If you can let go of any judgement about yourself and write from a place of honesty and openness, you will be surprised by the thoughts that reside inside your mind. Journaling sounds like such a simple concept, but the revelations you learn about yourself are eye opening and life changing, if reflected on properly.

I wrote a song about a year ago titled, “Burning Bridges,” but it wasn’t until this year that I re-read it with a new understanding. It’s a harsh truth to swallow, and is most definitely not one of my better attributes, but it has forced me to confront the behaviour. I realize that if I stay on this path, I can expect loneliness, sadness and feelings of unfulfillment. It’s up to me, to now actively work on changing the behaviour, something at which I am currently struggling to do with my own family. 

Growth and change have always been important to me. When I feel like I have outgrown my current situation, I start opening myself up to changing my direction, my interests, and my friends and relationships. Honestly, I think I enjoy how the dramatic change feels, the uncertainty of it all and the freedom to become a new and different individual. My problem is, that I feel like in order for me to ‘level up’, I need to move on from everyone and everything. I must burn every bridge so that there is no returning to my previous ‘comfortable’ state. It’s a sacrifice that doesn’t need to take place. 

BURNING BRIDGES

(Verse 1)

This ain’t a healthy habit, I got a long road to walk.

Don’t wanna go alone, but I’m a pyromaniac.

Torch all my shame, set fire to the rain, collateral damage, you were never in my aim.

I’m used to lonely travels, my solitude is normalized.

I don’t think twice, when there’s a choice to do or die.

Bridges scare me, no guaranteed other side, so once I get to where I’m goin, I say goodbye.

I light the match, look around.

I burn the bridge, until it’s down.

Left with a void, but I never cry,

Because where I come from, is what I despise.

(Chorus)

Burnin bridges, lessons never learned.

So focused, movin forward, never look concerned

Bridges burning, there’s fire all around.

Feel regret, but the leave the scene, I’m on to the next town.

(Verse 2)

Truth hurts and is ugly in fact.

Appearance on point, but my soul feels whack.

Hate that I carry shame, ignorance been my game, love or leave em, to me that shit is all the same.

I’m always movin forward, I only look back,

To remind a broken boy, you can be everything you lack.

A pure heart, sidetracked by selfish gain,

Karma’s a bitch, she’s the one that brought the flame.

I light the match, look around.

I burn the bridge, until it’s down.

Left with a void, but I never cry,

Because where I come from, is what I despise.